What you see above is the original version of my artwork concept “Monsters Only I See” from 2010. As I recall, the idea came to me when I was passing by my bathroom mirror one night, late at night. I think I was in the midst of a depressive episode at the time. To be clear, I’ve never actually stabbed any mirrors or anything myself or have I seen any actual gremlins in mirrors or elsewhere for that matter. I renamed this artwork concept “Monstrosity of the Mind” in 2016 for the final redux.
Read on to see exactly how this artwork has evolved over the years as I tried to perfect it. To see the most recent and/or final redux of this artwork, see here: Monstrosity of the Mind
Here is what I wrote about the original “Monsters Only I See” back on September 20, 2010:
I don’t know why darker images come easier to me than lighthearted ones. I’m sure there’s a psychological component in there somewhere. I’ve had this idea for a while but only today did I finish what I started a few weeks ago. Special thank you to RawArt for the Grimlens which gave me the idea… that and my bathroom mirror.
At left you can see my first try at this concept from 2010 and at right my first redux of it from 2012. I used a flat wall prop as the “room” the mirror is in for the original scene but for the 2012 redux I created an actual square room so that the mirror would have something to reflect. I also used a new technique to make the mirror look more realistic and used a better brush for the cracking/shattering of the mirror effect.
The 2012 redux was a considerable improvement over the original but it was hardly the best I could do then or especially now. It was inevitable that I would revisit this concept to try again to improve it. For Halloween 2016, I did just that and created a brand new and vastly improved scene which I renamed “Monstrosity of the Mind”.
Now at left is the 2012 redux and at right is the final redux from 2016. For the 2016 redux I created a complete scene rather than just a blank room. I also added far more detail to the scene with glowing eyes on the gremlins and blood on the mirror (the latter was a suggestion from my dad to make it creepier). I also added an additional “real” gremlin coming out of the box in the lower left corner so that “not all is as it seems”. In addition to all that, I added scars and bruises to her skin to show that she has been fighting against her “demons” for quite a while.
The mind can create terrible monsters to live in fear of but the true terror is when the delusions are not delusions at all. To destroy the horrors completely, she will also destroy herself.
It still doesn’t quite look “perfect” to me but I’m not sure yet how to improve upon it. I’ll probably revisit this artwork concept eventually, I’m just not sure when or how I will be able to improve it. Only time will tell for sure.
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